Christmas!

My favorite time of year.  I know it sounds crazy, but i seriously wait all year long for these last two months! I just love it! The Christmas tree ( which by the way my christmas tree is 11 ft tall and flocked, no judging!!! not to mention i have one in my room and in the living room).. the lights.. the Village! I LOVE IT HERE! I get to walk two blocks to get food, drinks,  my family... im blessed thats for sure.  Ive been feeling really happy again lately because ive finally started working again! For all who don't know, im working with my dad!  I wasn't sure at first how it would go over... if we would kill each other at the end of the day... but i couldn't love it more. He has taught me so much already and i look up to him a lot! ( might i add he is a great teacher) We have a great time cutting and doing surgical procedures together in particular. I have a huge amount of respect for him he works his butt off religiously all day every day.  I really had no idea until i started working there. He sees patients every ten minutes all day long.  Its nuts how much were running around! I find myself at the end of the day wanting to go over and hang out at my parents just to chat about all of the funny crazy things that happened to us that day :)

Christmas is in 4 days! ahhhh ! I cant believe its already here. Which means a new year soon too. I never really do resolutions... but i think mine this year is going to be to move into a bigger place and get a dog. Ive had the itch so bad lately that i even went and checked out some puppies. Unfortunately, the apartment im living in right now doesn't allow dogs..but come May my lease is up and i WILL be finding a place that does. Theres not usually a day that goes by that  i dont think about Daisy and Bentley. I miss them so much it hurts! I cried about it the other night which was weird... i was emotional and for some reason got a flash of Bentley running at the dog park and tears just started pouring out. Its such a big loss and missing piece in my heart.  I was thinking about if i even would get another boxer... as much as my heart longs for one.. i might not.  They seem to have so many problems.. and im sort of leaning towards something a little more relaxed. Any ideas? Alex was talking about me maybe getting a boston terrier! ( Krista i know you just shit yourself a little when you read that :) ) i know they are hyper but i definitely want a dog that i can leave at home while im working and not have to worry about it destroying the house! I think its just in boxers nature to naturally want to get into everything : / i dont know.. lots of thinking and more researching !

Anyways... MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!! <3<3<3<3<3<3

ironic!

well funny that i just posted yesterday about being miserable with no results.. i got them. i passed :) awesomeness. So now i can go find a job and make the world a better place. haha... hopefully

PS

I have been doing some photo manipulations lately. Here are a few. The 3rd one down is by Alex, he digitally paints. He is sooooo goood i dont even get it. Blows my mind!

This is Lauren :) 

Me

Alex's artwork

This one i had a lot of fun with, lots of work though

This is my favorite piece ive done so far

So, ive noticed that when i show my art to people.. some of the pieces make them feel a little bit uncomfortable.  Im guessing because of the nudity? So i wanted to explain a little.  The reason for most of my pieces being the female form is because it has become what inspires me to photo manipulate. LET ME MAKE IT CLEAR.. i am NOT  a lesbian :) or even bi... that is not the reason why i choose the female body.. i just feel inspired by its beauty. Not so much the male body.. haha. Feel free to ask questions :)

waiting waiting waiting

so the last 19 days have been the longest days of my entire life. I took my NCLEX (nursing license exam ) on the 28th of last month and it has been A nightmare!!!!!! Every single day i try and come home or be home around 1 o'clock when the mail gets to my house and EVERRRRYYYY SINNNGGGGLLLEEEE DAYYYYYYY... nothing. Other girls from my program waited.. hmm... 8 days ... 10 days..... 17 days... oh but me? 19! so far ! who knows how long or when they will actually get here.

If i passed... straight into the nursing world :) which would mean the world to me.

If i failed.... i think it might be back into hair for a little while because this whole testing and waiting process is just taking to long to do nothing all over again!

Please God have let me pass, ive never wanted anything more in my life.

stresss!!

IM SO STRESSED OUT ABOUT MY NURSING EXAM!!!! I feel like im back in school and im developing a blinking problem and gaining fifty pounds! I just really really really need God to be on my side for this because i need to get things together and get a job as soon as possible. Its been SO hard to find a job because im too much of a liability for anyone to hire me unlicensed. I need to start making money though and to be honest all of this free time is driving me nuts. I hate it.

August 17th is creeping up on me FAST, but cant come sooner ! i need to bring in the money honey.

been doing a lot of photo shop today :/