I feel like i haven't posted in forever. I finally was just trying to catch up on reading about everyone's lives on here :) Life has been good. It's been five months since my life got turned upside down and just in he last month i can finally feel change. I had never felt so hurt,or sad in my life. I couldn't even understand what that pain felt like until i endured it myself. You always hear the term "heartbreak" but it never really means anything..... well now i know. I could barely pull myself out of bed everything, i was horrible to my family, my poor mom got it the worst. I cried everyday, it was like i couldn't even begin to see a way out.
Things have changed though. I feel happy again. I dont cry anymore and when i do its just because i miss my little lovies Daisy and Bentley :) I finally just accepted the fact that they will not be mine now, or in the future... but that they do have a wonderful life with Jin Ho.
I definitely dont want to date anytime soon.. but i can finally feel open to the idea of boys again which has been super fun.
I have the BEST friends in the entire world and without them i wouldnt be where i am! They really pulled through for me and i couldnt be any more thankful. i love you guys.
School has been great. Fall semester has been horribly kicking my ass so i decided its time for me to kick it in to high gear. I need to get better grades and apply myself more. I start at Sierra Vista this friday and although im nervous.. im so excited. I start in Mother Baby and peds. wish me luck :)
life is fabulous. im welcoming myself back to it. haha.