when you start really valuing yourself and realizing how hard you work to be who you are then you wont settle for someone that doesn't value you for that too. I think i finally just this year started realizing what i want and what i deserve... took long enough!

feeling better today. Spent some good quality time with good friends last night. Let loose a little bit. Get to hang out with August and Krista today in slo. its a nice day!!! I just felt happy today when i woke up. ROLLER COASTER!!!!

starting all over again.

and just like that its over. Im kinda over everything right now. Im OVER school.... like cant even begin to try and describe just exactly how over it i am. Over dating... over living at my parents house... over working my ass off and not getting paid! just over it :( im burnt out, can you tell ? and nothing has been going the way i would have liked it too... such is life. Almost graduated from my program. May 22 couldnt come fast enough. Im scared, excited, fearful, sad, happy... a mix of emotions. Mostly lately ive been feeling an overall overwhelming urge to just cry at any moment. what the hell is wrong with me these days? i need to stop being so sensitive and get it together!

the boy thing didnt work out so well.

Commitment. What does it even mean ? Why even have it ?does putting a label on something make it official? And also, why do our pasts have to carry over into our futures? Is it preventing us from totally one hundred percent embracing new expierences and new feelings ? I wanna find out what you guys think.