For the last six or seven months i started to feel like i couldn't find happiness and that i probably never would again. I couldn't figure out where i was going wrong and why when i had everything i thought i wanted (at the time) wasn't enough. I felt lost and like i was stuck in a place that i didn't know how to get out of.
I finally did and i cant describe how much happier i am. I made some big changes in my life that at first i wasn't sure were right or not but was hopeful that in the end they would benefit me and im so glad that i did because i am the happiest now that i have been in a long, long time. I feel like i re-found myself all over again. I missed how much i love meeting new people and surrounding myself with the ones i love. I missed learning new things and growing with each new expierence. I missed laughing and appreciating the little things. I hated moving back to AG. I felt trapped like i had nothing to do and nowhere to go. I had no privacy living with my parents and i felt like they were breathing down my neck every second of the day. It's funny how a situation can change so much by just changing your attitude. I love it now. I love every single thing about it. I love the quietness at night time, i love the fresh air in the mornings and waking up to see my mom every single day ( not forever but for now :) ) i love walking into a place and re-hashing memories with my best friends from highschool. I could definietly see myself staying here for the rest of my life and just MAYBE raising a family here.
I promised myself that i would have as much fun as i can between now and when i start nursing school in a month and i have been having a blast! I love my friends and how funny and loving they are. I really am LUCKY to have them all in my life. I cant wait to see what this next year is going to bring me i feel free and and excited and passionate. i feel fabulous